埃里克·戴恩遗作回忆录11月3日出版：摘录披露ALS如何夺走他游泳与拥抱女儿的力气
美国《人物》（People）杂志近日独家刊出已故演员埃里克·戴恩（Eric Dane）遗作回忆录《时日之书：瞬间回忆录》（My Book of Days: A Memoir in Moments）的摘录。这本书由戴恩在生前完成，定于11月3日由企鹅出版集团旗下 The Open Field 出版。戴恩今年2月19日在 Los Angeles 因肌萎缩侧索硬化（ALS，俗称渐冻症）导致的呼吸衰竭去世，终年53岁。企鹅兰登书屋此前确认，他一直工作到生命最后阶段才写完这本书，并希望把这些文字留给两个女儿和读者。
摘录中最受关注的一段，写的是他确诊后在 Antigua 度假时的一幕。他跳进海里后发现自己已经无力游泳、无法靠自己的力量回到船上，是小女儿 Georgia 和她的朋友把他拖回了船上；他让女儿回去继续浮潜，随后给妻子 Rebecca Gayheart 打电话，哽咽着说：「我游不动了，Rebecca。我游不动了。」Gayheart 在电话那头哭着回答：「我一直害怕这一天。我知道它会来，我一直怕它来。」戴恩2025年6月做客《早安美国》（Good Morning America）时也曾向主持人 Diane Sawyer 讲过这段经历，说自己正是在那一刻意识到「在水里再也不安全了」。
书中还披露了他的首发症状。2024年1月，他和孩子们吃寿司时，右手突然使不上筷子，手指发麻，他当时以为只是「手机打多了」，没有在意；三周后再次发作时，他已经完全握不住筷子。此后他辗转看手外科与神经科医生，2025年4月公开宣布确诊 ALS。书中写道，2025年12月，大女儿 Billie 参演《胡桃夹子》演出后，他想给女儿一个惯常的拥抱，却发现双臂已经抬不起来，只能对女儿说：「对不起，我没法抱住你了。我的手臂抬不起来了。」Billie 反过来抱住了他，父女俩相拥而泣。
回忆录也谈到他的成瘾问题与离开《实习医生格蕾》的往事。他在剧组期间深陷止痛药成瘾，前后五次进入戒疗机构；主创 Shonda Rhimes 曾提出可以让他停工接受帮助。2012年第8季临近结束时，他被告知不会回归第9季。他在书中写道，自己的离开归根结底是钱的问题：尽管 Mark Sloan 一角人气很高，他还是变得「太贵了、可以被替代」，并坦承成瘾问题「没有帮上忙」。戴恩2006年起在《实习医生格蕾》中饰演整形外科医生 Mark Sloan，因「McSteamy」的绰号广为人知，此后还主演了《末日孤舰》，并在《亢奋》中饰演 Cal Jacobs。
在写给两个女儿的文字中，他说：「永不放弃。无论发生在你身上的是什么，战斗到最后一口气。这种病在慢慢夺走我的身体，但它永远夺不走我的精神……你们是我的遗产、我的心、我的一切。」他还写道，自己要向女儿们展示如何优雅而有尊严地走过这一生，无论发生什么。出版社介绍称，这本书是他对家庭、韧性、信仰、清醒、父职，以及身患绝症时如何充实地生活的思考。戴恩与 Gayheart 2004年结婚，2018年分居后并未离婚，两人一直共同抚养两个女儿；家人今年2月宣布其死讯时说，他最后的日子是在朋友、妻子和两个女儿的陪伴中度过的，两个女儿是他世界的中心。
Eric Dane's Posthumous Memoir Arrives Nov. 3: Excerpts Show How ALS Took Away His Ability to Swim and to Hug His Daughters
People magazine has published exclusive excerpts from the posthumous memoir of the late actor Eric Dane, "My Book of Days: A Memoir in Moments." Dane completed the book before his death, and it is set to be released on November 3 by The Open Field, an imprint of Penguin Publishing Group. Dane died in Los Angeles on February 19 at age 53 of respiratory failure caused by amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS). Penguin Random House previously confirmed that he worked on the book right up to the end and wanted his daughters and readers to have these words.
The most widely noted passage describes a vacation in Antigua after his diagnosis. After jumping into the ocean, Dane realized he could no longer swim and could not generate enough power to get back to the boat; his younger daughter, Georgia, and her friend pulled him from the water. He sent Georgia back to snorkeling, then called his wife, Rebecca Gayheart, in tears: "I can't swim, Rebecca. I can't swim." Gayheart answered through tears: "I was afraid of this day. I knew it would come. I've been dreading it." Dane had also told the story in a June 2025 "Good Morning America" interview with Diane Sawyer, saying that was the moment he realized he was not safe in the water anymore.
The memoir also reveals his first symptom. In January 2024, while eating sushi with his children, his right hand suddenly could not work the chopsticks and his fingers felt numb; he shook it off, thinking he was probably texting too much. Three weeks later it happened again, worse, and he could not grip the chopsticks at all. After a chain of hand specialists and neurologists, he publicly announced his ALS diagnosis in April 2025. In December 2025, after his elder daughter Billie performed in "The Nutcracker," he tried to give her their customary hug and found he could no longer lift his arms: "I'm so sorry I can't wrap my arms around you. I can't lift my arms anymore." Billie embraced him instead, and they cried together.
The book also addresses his addiction and his departure from "Grey's Anatomy." Dane writes that he struggled with painkiller addiction during the show and entered rehab five times; creator Shonda Rhimes offered to let him take time away for help. Toward the end of Season 8 in 2012, he was told the show would not bring him back for Season 9. He writes that the ending came down to money: despite Mark Sloan's popularity, he had become too expensive and expendable, while conceding that his addiction "didn't help." Dane played plastic surgeon Mark Sloan, nicknamed "McSteamy," on "Grey's Anatomy" from 2006, later starred in "The Last Ship," and played Cal Jacobs in "Euphoria."
In passages addressed to his two daughters, he wrote: "Never give up. No matter what happens to you, fight until your last breath. This disease is slowly taking my body, but it will never take my spirit... You two are my legacy, my heart, my everything." He also wrote that he would show his girls how to walk through life with grace and dignity, no matter what. The publisher describes the book as a reflection on family, resilience, faith, sobriety, fatherhood, and living fully in the face of terminal illness. Dane and Gayheart married in 2004; they separated in 2018 but remained married and close coparents. When his family announced his death in February, they said he spent his final days surrounded by friends, his wife, and his two daughters, who were the center of his world.
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图片来源：图：埃里克·戴恩2017年7月23日在 San Diego Comic-Con 出席活动。Gage Skidmore 摄，CC BY-SA 2.0，维基共享资源（资料图）。Photo: Eric Dane at San Diego Comic-Con on July 23, 2017. Photo by Gage Skidmore, CC BY-SA 2.0, via Wikimedia Commons (file photo).
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